Month: December 2009

Home, Winter

Twenty One Days Left

Posted on by jeanneji

I went out and bought some things.  I feel like such a girl right now. I’m debating returning things though- since I don’t know if I can justify the purchases beyond “I want them.”  Plus, there are other things I also want that may just outrank these.  Fashion or toys?

I have a car appt. Wednesday, and Amanda is also having a Christmas Party 🙂 I have to find some cheap gift for that.  I’m working on an outfit too, but that’s still more spending. Haha.

I went out to dinner with my mom, brother, family friend, her daughter and Dave (not my Dave. Dan’s Dave.) Side note. When I met my Dave, I told Jenn that he reminds me of other Dave, and the voice has similarities (they both went to the same school too…weird.)  Anyway. Dinner was good. I like being in good company.

Went home, and fell asleep for 5 hours maybe. Oops. I didn’t think I would end up like that. But I’m up now (at 2:34am) and not doing much.  I was talking to Jenn and OKC was brought up again…

I had been meaning to check my inbox, not to see what messages are in there, but more to look back.  Specifically, I wanted to see what day exactly I started talking to D and all. For the record. I sent the first message June 10, 2009, and received a response June 11, 2009. Picked up again around the 26th, and then of course began IM.  I don’t recall when that happened exactly. I know we chatted 4th of July for sure, but I don’t know if there was IM contact before that (maybe? IDK anymore).  But it’s all history (even though I no longer have the logs 🙁 )  Oh well.  That’s being official (if that date even matters), but I still hold July 4th the date of dates. Har har har…

I’m gonna head out and get up in the morning to adventure with Jennifer or so.  Ta ta for the time being!

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Home, Winter

Twenty Four Days

Posted on by jeanneji

I have gone though my first complete day of Winter Vacation.  How do I feel? Meh.  I kinda slept. Still trying to work on that, but the cable went down earlier so internet and TV was out for a little while.  My brother took the car so I was stuck inside too. Guess what I did today?!

I CROCHETED A SCARF. Then I started knitting something too (while watching Fast & Furious and Star Wars).  It’s been a slow day. While I couldn’t sleep though, I found a brilliant site about what I can do over break. I have decided to accomplish at least some goal for each day.  I have 24 official days left.

December 18: Granny knitted for her grand kids.

It’s been a pretty slow day text wise too. I frown a little about it, but it’s nothing huge. I did go out to Wal*Mart earlier to find some fancy yarn (I’m so lame) but I ran into a girl from high school.  We ended up chatting for a good hour or so about things. It was nice to talk to someone, and see a familiar face.

I’m trying to see what I have to do tomorrow. It’s a Saturday…I’ve been meaning to find some shoes (this is being a girl at it’s finest. Or worst. I can’t tell.)  I do want to pick up some travel items.  And maybe a memory card for my camera.

I am so excited to be done with school, but I feel like I don’t know how to deal with not being so busy all the time. Overall break is also dedicated to regaining a sleep cycle.  I’m going to go start a book and lay in bed. We’ll see how that goes. Goodnight, everyone 🙂

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General, Home

Just GaGa

Posted on by jeanneji

I’m currently sitting on the train right now; it’s Tuesday the 1st of December.  I just got out of my physics exam at 2ish, so it’s pretty chill now.  The past week has been kind of interesting, but not too exciting.  I hope everyone had a good holiday.

On Thanksgiving, I went out to Peace Valley Park and took some pictures. I got up at about 4:30 on Black Friday to get to Best Buy with my brother. He wanted a game. I just happened to pick up 4 seasons of House (I’m awful with money).  Dinner with the family was pretty typical.

My phone’s been pretty dead lately- no calls or texts.  I don’t want to say I’m completely dependent on it, but at the same time, it does get a little lonely sometimes.  Going from one extreme to the next is just an adjustment.

Anyway. GaGa.  This Thursday, December 3rd, 2009- I shall be attending the Lady GaGa concert with a group of fantastic kids.  I’m pretty excited. I spent last night watching a bunch of interviews with her on YouTube- I think we could be friends 🙂 Everyone has some outfit, which was mandatory. Haha. I have a tuxedo dress, sequin jacket, mini top hat, fish nets, opera gloves, mini bow-tie. Cane optional 😛  I wonder if I can find a monocle XD That’d be a little much.  I’m still tweaking some things and finishing some things, but hopefully everything is grand.

I’ve been updating StarFall if you’re interested, and some things in my Photo gallery.  My dream log has been pretty slacking.  I haven’t been sleeping much in the past few days…weeks? Maybe a good long while I say.  This past week I averaged about 2hours a sleep per night, and I’d be up possibly 24+ when I am up too. Something’s not right.

This may drag for a while. I have a lot running on my mind, and I’m not sure what I’m doing anymore.

I’ve been thinking  a lot about where I’m going in life. I never chose this path for myself; I let my friend pick it for me since I don’t know what I want.  there are things that I enjoy doing, but i don’t have anything that drives me.  like, GaGa knew what she wanted to do when she was young- that was her calling.  Nothing calls to me, and if it does, then I don’t hear it.  I’ve always been looking for that one thing that i was meant to do.

My relationship with school is pretty selfish.  it’s becoming a love/hate thing.  the school itself is great.  The education that you get is quality, but my problem is that I don’t want this like some people do.  in the sense that if you choose a job you love, you’ll never have to work a day in your life.  if this is something you want to do, it’s not as much a hassle because you want to be here doing what you do.  I’m struggling because there are so many other things that i want to do, and i feel like it’s more a sacrifice of myself to put the time and effort into school.

i like the things i learn here, but I’m afraid that’s not enough to keep me here.  something about being here puts me on a different set of standards- into a different world that i want to be apart of, but i don’t know if i really belong.  Is there some other person out there more deserving of my seat? I learn things but I don’t retain so well.  Is it my method in learning, or is my memory just shot? It hurts me when I know I’ve learned something, but I cannot recall any of it.  So what if I pull the grade- that won’t mean jack shit once I’m out working and need to know this information.  Would it be better to get C’s in class but have full retention and understanding?

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