Is this like the end?  Where do I go from here?

I spent the past four months of my life living away from home and more so, out of the country.  I have gone to school, and now I have completed a semester.  Looking back onto my time in London, I say it was well spent, but there are still many things I wish I could have done (more so budgeted for).

I won’t fill this with regrets- the future is still ahead of me. I made good of the time I had, and met some great people along the way. I’m going to miss this place, as expensive as it is.  Julia told me already that there’s going to be culture shock when I get back. What happens if I prefer Europe to America? Will I be harboring this Anti-Americanism feel in my heart?

What’s next? Summer.  I always say this is going to be THE summer, but maybe this one is special.  I have a new culture under my belt; I’m going into Pharmacy School; I’m coming back to the people who defined my life, now a changed person.  There’s a boy in my life that I only just met less than a year ago- and he still talks to me! Ahaha….he’s great and makes me smile and happy all sorts the bunch.  I have it pretty good, I just don’t take the time to notice.

Sure there are things I want, or a number of people I may envy, but it’s not saying I don’t have much- I just find it to be a nice thought if I could have this other little piece too 🙂 A new camera lens would be so nice, but it’s nothing I NEED. My mother wants to buy me a real bed for my house- I’ve been sleeping on a futon- but I honestly rather have a new lens than a bed. But what I REALLLY WANT is STORMTROOPER ARMOR! I’d sell a piece of myself for that. TK got it going on.

This is mostly a reflection piece to pass the time, but another bit is that I was chatting with D for a while, and he had to go, but said that he’d be back later, and I’m seeing if I can make it to later and chat some more.  With time difference and school, there’s not often a convenient time for us to talk.  I enjoy his company. I might shower in the mean time. I used to get so obsessive about being able to chat all the time whenever someone was on. Send me notifications so I didn’t miss a minute of potential chat time.  Not wanting to step away incase he might sign on.  I get crazy sometimes, but I’d like to think that I have gotten better…Sure I’m still bummed if I miss a chance, but I’m not dying. I’m not always there when you call, but I’m always on time, and I gave you my all, now baby be mine. Remember Ja and Ashanti?

Ok. So I’m going to go shower. Use up some shampoo and conditioner- take some weight out of my suitcases please!