I had this dream last night.

I was at an event where it was as if we were in a train station/casino/theater. I was with Laney and Joanne and they were talking to the lady at the desk about ticketing. In the distance I see Matt W. who was with some girl. They were discussing how if they were going, they needed to make sure that there was a train so that they could make it back down to JMU afterwards.

Note: Background information. I really haven’t seen this kid since high school and we were pretty close friends. I wished him a happy birthday and we hinted at getting together this summer. I texted him on 3 events and he said he would get back to me. To this point, he hasn’t gotten back to me so I’m just letting it go.

He hadn’t seen me yet and I didn’t want to keep looking over there in case we made eye contact. I wasn’t going to bring anything up. Eventually, I saw him look over out the corner of my eye and he realized it was me. He started walking over and I pretended to look up so surprised & excited to see him. I was straddling a bench when he came over and was starting to take a seat. There wasn’t much said. I went to give him a hug and he was apologizing for never calling back. He started to mention something about him being free starting Monday (or something like that) and I asked if that meant we could hang out Monday.

He said no, that’s not what he meant. This is when he took a seat behind me where we were both facing the ticketing desk. He put his hands over mine and interlocked our fingers. He leaned his head in and started whispering in my ear.  He apologized again for what happened and said that now that he’s available we can try to make this work. Of course that’s the implication of a relationship which I did not expect. He started getting a little handsy, running our hands (still together) over my skin and just being really sensual. I really couldn’t help the way my body reacted because it just felt so nice. Just to be held.

Then I started thinking about D. I wasn’t sure what to do. I settled on the thought that even though I’ve been waiting for D, there was no commitment made and maybe I could see where this went with Matt in the mean time.  I just never expected to get any of that from Matt so it threw me off.

The scene transformed into part of an old castle to the outside and a cemetery.  I was just with Matt and we started to see some people running in the cemetery. It was Steve and he called out to one of his teachers who was ahead of him. I said very loudly that it’s nice that he never said hi to me too. I hopped off the bench to say hi to Steve. After that, I was sitting on this couch/ledge a little bit down from Matt. Amy showed up later. It was strange how everyone was there (like a high school reunion) and I rolled off the ledge and started to lay on the ground [this method is reminiscent of the one time I slid out of bed when I was with D]. Then I was thinking how strange I am and if that would affect what Matt thought of me.

I woke up shortly after this. Confused.