Month: September 2011

Health

Pre-In

Posted on by jeanneji

Ok. So It’s been 24 hours since I started my med. I just want to go through a few things while I can.

I woke up this morning (after about 4 hours of sleep) not feeling sleepy-tired, but just not into getting out of bed. My sciatica didn’t kick in until class started (figures) but deal. I was trying to take notes but my body just felt weak (the entire way to class). I was able to write, but I couldn’t put any pressure on the pencil. Very strange feeling. If I’m like that again tomorrow, I will probably make up the classes on my own time.

I have small bouts of nausea, but nothing serious. More noticeable is my tendency to feel a little light headed/weak/almost dizzy. I just need to go slow and I’m ok.

The goal of this is that I’m trying to keep up with logging, especially now that I’m going through some of these changes. Where I stand now, I would never consider (suicide) as any option. I could not go through with it- I’m NOT interested in it. It just freaks me out that these medications have that sort of side effect. I don’t understand how this medication would put those thoughts in my head. Hopefully, let’s pray not, if there are changes, someone can catch them or see them. That’s what this log is supposed to do. I just hope I can stay honest on here and admit when I need more help.

Within the past 36 hours, I can say that I have not felt the urge to cry. I’m thinking it’s more a placebo thing, but I haven’t had any particular emotional triggers. Progress. I’m excited. I’m just sick of crying all the time. This is a good change. I just hope it doesn’t hit the other extreme and I stop feeling emotion (doubtful). I just want to sleep now. Le tired.

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Dreams, Health, Home

Doctor Doctor

Posted on by jeanneji

First off, I had the weirdest sick dream last night. It was dirty (raunchy) and included Lenny, and some girl that may or may not have been Amanda. Let me just say that I might be able to understand how Lenny is gay, and that I’m not really into the girl scene. I don’t really want to go into too much more with this. Ew.

I went home last night for a doctor’s appointment earlier today. Since I’m a new patient we did a past medical history and talked a bit. She feels that one of my major conditions that could be effecting the rest of me is depression. I expressed concerns of a thyroid condition so she did draw blood for testing. That makes me feel better. I also got my flu shot while I was in there.

Funny thing with the flu shot. Lately, my “sciatica” has been great/nonexistent. Wasn’t going to say anything. About an hour after my appointment, I was sitting in the kitchen and all of a sudden, it started kicking in. My lower back and hips are going in and out with this panging sore pain. Not cool. I’m leaning the shot as cause, but I can’t say with certainty.

So I got a prescription for Lexapro (escitalopram), copay of $50 (no generic yet- March!). Ouch. I was really upset with that, but I looked up the approximate retail cost which came about to just under $120. Makes me feel better about what I was spending, but I’m still not happy about it. Then again, we also discussed in class how it can cost of up $1.7 BILLION just to bring a single drug into market. I get it costs a lot, but *frown*. We’ll see how it goes in the follow up and or when generic pops out.

Hm. I forgot to mention how I got in to see the school psychologist yesterday. Spent about an hour in a pre-in clinic. A lot of questions and they’ll get back to me to determine whether or not I should be seen at the school or be referred somewhere else. They’re really nice about it, so we’ll see how that goes. How crazy am I? I’ll keep you posted.

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London, School

Fun Facts

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So in my Nonprescription Therapeutics class, he has us coming up by last name and sharing a fun fact to the class. I think it’s a fascinating idea to learn more about my colleagues, but I’ve been thinking about this for a bit (on and off). One girl saved a life of a friend, and someone is a professional cake decorator. That’s pretty cool and I would love to have something neat.

Lenny suggested I talk about my photo publishing in London. That was a pretty neat idea. I was going to go with that one until just recently.  I sent someone to jail while I was in London too! Haha. I have to word it just right so it’s concise and not just be being a bitch. He (and his wife) were criminals. It’s like my good deed.

I’m between the two. London was just a fabulous experience. What’s more exciting- sending someone to jail or getting a picture of Megan Fox published in a book?

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Friends, Home

Sly Devil

Posted on by jeanneji

Clever girl. It’s almost October and many things coming up. In keeping with the theme, I’m working on the annual birthday box. The first one was so incredibly themed…I don’t think I can top that. So third annual box is a collection of goodies, slightly different than last year’s box of goodies. I had some other birthday ideas but they don’t come in a box. Idea. Polaroid? Haha. Just jotting thoughts. He’s just one topic that can make me smile through almost anything 🙂

But another moment. Yolei. That’s someone I didn’t mean to grow apart from. I made contact. Try it. Go rekindle an old flame of a friend. Dare you.

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General

Dead Phone

Posted on by jeanneji

Today is one of them slow days. The D thing didn’t happen but I was doing things anyway. But back to slow.

It’s one of those days where no one texts or responds. My phone has been so inactive I get nervous that ATT cut my service or something. I keep feeling like my phone isn’t sending or people aren’t receiving. Freaks me out, but then I don’t want to think about it as my unpopular day. This is the -people are sick of my bullshit day. Haha.

It’s really not that big of a deal; its just going from always having communication/responses with/from people to none, its an adjustment. I’m just not used to it.

I’m sitting at the buffet with my mom. Ran intobsome old family friends. Noted my weight loss. Same old. I’m trying to break in these heels though and so I’m much taller today. It wouldn’t be so bad if I weren’t in a chinese place where I’m already a head taller than they. What’s another 3 some inches.

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