This is part 2 of my last day here. I was only here a few days but it’s always so sad to leave. I have to go home for work this weekend but I can’t come back up after another weekend. I would have preferred to be here the next weekend when I didn’t have to leave on a Friday night, but I wanted to be here now.

This is starting to get difficult. I really feel so close to him, but I just can’t say it yet. The classic girl in me wants it to be perfect. Just right. I hate being this way.

I was chatting with Dave for a bit the other day. It came out how I have been depressed. He’s really supportive and says wonderful things about me. It’s interesting when he says he has dreams about me, but he’s got his girlfriend. Why am I so special. There’s a part of me, maybe I don’t feel exactly like I used to about him, but there’s still history there. He’s still a great guy. I’ve been watching How I Met Your Mother and there’s advice against having your ex at the wedding. I’ve been thinking that I might want to have Dave at my wedding. I know that could be bad, but I want to think we are great friends that are past this. I’m sure it would probably be on me anyway.

I wish I knew where I was going in life.