Author: jeanneji

General, Internets, School

Venturestein’d

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SHE LIVES! Hello hello.  I can finally say that I’ve been hard at work with some things. Portfolio is coming together nicely and I cleaned up my main site a ton. Overall, I’m pretty satisfied with it 🙂

I’m currently halfway through my master’s program and that is keeping me busy (in addition to the job search). Hopefully this momentum continues *fingers crossed*

What else is going on? Gammer (I swear, he’s like my spirit animal) and the gang have been working on some amazing stuff that I’ve been listening to the last week or so. This really brings me back – check out his SoundCloud for a free download of his latest mixtape! There are so many good songs on there (then add in what Darren Styles has been working on!) HTID, fo realz, yo. UK Hardcore moves my soul.

As I stand here, right here I am taken by the view
Leaves me speechless, I’m overwhelmed being here with you
Can you feel my heartbeat, can you read the signs, this is our destiny
You said “don’t jump too soon, baby, what will be will be”

I feel I’m on top of the world tonight, with you
The stars all shine so bright tonight, when I’m with you
And I don’t wanna come down, I don’t wanna come down
I wanna stay up here tonight
I feel I’m on top of the world tonight, with you

– Darren Styles, Dougal & Gammer feat. Hannah Faulkner – Top Of The World ; (Alive)

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Food, General

Food Blog

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Hello! I figured it would be weird to have food recipes on my personal blog where it jumps from my crying streaks to pretzels. You can find it here! // [7/13/2015 – updated link to new website since renovation!]

Anyway, today is my last day up in Hazleton. I  have a doctor’s appointment tomorrow and work this weekend. I haven’t been there in a while, but I’m ready for my income I suppose. This is tough. There’s not much of an update here. I’ve been cooking a lot, nothing new to report on. Matt started his urology rotation so I don’t see him as often now. Oh well. Sacrifices for his career. It’s only a month.

I started playing Age of Empires III again. I might start up another game. Let’s go!

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Technology

Straight Talk Gold Mine

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I received a text from my BFF this morning about her struggles getting a micro-sim card from Straight Talk. I decided to check it out.  Apparently there is no option left for AT&T users. Everything is being shifted into T-Mobile (ew). This is what I found when I asked Google about it.

Straight Talk formerly allowed customers to bring an AT&T GSM phone or to purchase a SIM card that offers service on AT&T’s network. As of February 2013, America Movil has discontinued both options from both the Straight Talk and NET10 websites. In addition, most references (besides support articles) have been edited to remove any mentions to AT&T-compatible service. It is unclear as to whether AT&T-compatible sales have been permanently discontinued or not. Existing customers are not impacted by this change. – Wiki

If you were thinking about joining Straight Talk, there is still one option left, but that window is closing fast as well. Wal-Mart might still have SIMs available in store or online. If you can get one, apparently Straight Talk will honor those SIMs that are still available for sale. – Talk Android

Well. Looks like the extra SIM I have at home is worth some gold. Ebay is already seeing major sales for what once was a $10 bucks piece of plastic.  I have no problems helping out my BFF, but I want to look into re-activating my mom’s old SIM on straight talk; if that one is still useable, then I essentially have 2 and can easily give one up. There are so many different words about what is going on, we’ll see. For now, I’m just hanging on to what I have.

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Health, Technology

Xperience Sony

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It has been a little while but I think I am back into my phone binge. I haven’t kept up with things for a while, but with the moving to Virginia soon, I was thinking about finally getting a real phone plan. I saw on AT&T’s website that they are anticipating the HTC One, the follow up to the HTC One X (and other letters). It’s pretty nice, but the new HTC Sense interface is a little Windows-like. I’m sure it’s not bad since HTC is a great company, but I looked up what Sony was doing.

Sony Xperia Z.

Xperia Z
Xperia Z, coming soon!

 

This bad boy is so pretty. Given, with all the capabilities and being so new and powerful, it’s a little expensive. As a very stupid move, if I pay off my credit card, I can buy it outright and just make slow payments on it. I would also need to have it shipped from Europe (hooray) or hope for a great deal on eBay.  There’s a nice matching new tablet (also not out yet) but that will have to wait. I really want this new phone. It’s so cool! As soon as I get settled with some things, I am looking to sell off some items and have a little more money. I should work on not having so much sentimental value on objects like my old phones. The values have really depreciated and I won’t make as much back at this point. Still something though.

I applied to get certified for my CPhT so I can find more work once we get to Virginia and the site says it normally takes up to an hour. Up To one hour. It’s been about 24 hours now and I still have not heard back from them yet.  I bet it’s my criminal background check.  Woo. I can’t wait to hear back from them.

I started my Viibryd again. The side effects of coming off the prozac are kicking in though. I am so tired these days and the motivation is pretty low, but I’m hoping the Viibryd kicks in much sooner than later. Here’s to hoping!

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Health

Fiddle Faddle

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This is so strange. Should things go according to plan, I will be living in Virginia by May. That means there are two months left here. I’m so excited to move on to this next chapter in my life, but it’s strange to be moving away from everything I’ve grown up with.

Right now, my depression is a mess. My latest refill on Prozac I filled at CVS at home (vs. Target in the city) and this is a new manufacturer. Guess what. Allergy rash! I stopped taking it, but have not been taking anything else since it has been maybe two weeks at this point and I am still itchy. This is so frustrating. It put a hold on my exercise (just like last year) since I don’t want to irritate the rash.

I’ve been staying up with Matt lately and it’s peaceful. I went out for pictures with his mom the other day. It wasn’t bad, but my depression is getting to me. I keep comparing myself to everyone else and it makes me feel so terrible inside. His mom has been reading up and knows all this information about her camera (on top of having 2 cameras strapped to her with a bandolier). Then his cousin Chris is this huge photographer and going through his pictures makes me feel like shit. I like photography, but I feel like a fraud next to these people. I don’t know what I am doing. I like to shoot on Auto because adjusting the settings is so time consuming and hard to get just right.

I know I shouldn’t compare myself to others and it’s all in my head, but I can’t stop these thoughts. They’re so pervasive and once I start thinking about it, I get so caught up bringing myself down. I can’t stop looking at these amazing pictures or reading about all the people doing wonderful things with their lives. I want to believe that it will motivate me to make a change and actually do something about myself, but then I just sink into this terrible mood and hate myself even more.

I am trying not to cry; trying not to take everything so personally. I get to see my doctor in a little while so hopefully we have a plan. This just gets so hard and I have trouble being around people. Thinking about it makes me sad, and I abhor crying in front of people. I keep on thinking about how everyone else lives their lives and how it takes so much effort for me to keep it together. That is not to say I’m the only one going through something or having a hard time, but just by appearances, it seems like I’m the only one who can’t deal with life.

I’d like to think I’m trying. I might be biased though.

Ugly Duck
One of the swans that came up on the frozen lake
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