Author: jeanneji

General

Tired

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I’m exhausted. I’ve only worked 2 week days and it couldn’t end sooner. Looking back at events on my phone, it has barely been a few days since I’ve had contact with some people and it feels like months.

It’s only for a few weeks, but I just want some time to myself. There was no transition out of school. I’m still not really sleeping, but working full time. I have the worst eating habits and I’m sick of everyone trying so damn hard to be “thin” and have all this useless crap (not mutually exclusive items).

No, I’m not completely innocent- yes, I like nice things, but it’s been bugging me lately how materialistic people are/have become. One thing is for sure though, I need to stop trying so hard to impress people and make decisions for myself. As much as I do things for myself and on my own, I am still entirely too dependent. Be the change.

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P2

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I can’t believe it. It’s Monday morning. 9 May 2011. I have completed my third year of school, which means that I am finally half way there.  I’m sitting in Acura at the moment getting some maintenance on my car and updating my phone to a later update of CM7. Love gingerbread, but I hope maybe this has something do with my compass being off it’s ass.

My phone is currently syncing right now so I have all the time to write.  I’m starting work tomorrow full time-ish. 4 days a week every week and every other weekend on top of that; this means I’m alternating between working 4 and 6 days a week. Until I get fully trained and can handle my own, it can get a little slow at the time. I was with Jenn and Blue over the weekend and I picked up my first pair of scrubs! I don’t know why that’s so exciting, but I am so happy about it. 3 pairs, but I might want to get some more scrub tops so mix and match (and also not wear the same thing all the time). 

Well Speaking of Blue, that’s Jenn’s cousin from Texas. She’s here for a month and we’re trying to show her around and give her this phenomenal experience in the area. Here’s to the best month ever only because we kids here have done it all already. Now there’s a reason to actually  do something.

I’m gonna put this computer away at the moment so I can fix all the settings on my phone.

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General

Fighting

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lucyyhale 🙂 http://twitpic.com/4mot7n

“Be kind, for everyone you meet is fighting a hard battle.” –Plato

This is the latest inspiration of the day. Astoundingly fitting, and so new wallpaper time!

Be kind, for everyone you meet is fighting a hard battle

I updated the font…I’m a little more content. On a side note. I am so hardcore crushing. There are a few things a happening where things might not be so complicated, although have an alternate ending I wasn’t exactly looking for. May things work out well for everyone, and may I not be the asshole.

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School

Getting There

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I always find it hard to take a picture of a bruise because it never looks as bad I it does in person. If you see this, it is the result of stealing 15 rolls of toilet paper from school.

On a lighter note, I thing I was successful in co-hosting the Greek Games today. I must say, I’m kind of proud of the glitter-filled water balloons. Free food is always nice too.

Things are getting mad crazy around here though. A lot of class things going on, but on top of that, I need to learn my recital piece (which is much more ugly than anticipated).  I’m looking for a more long term break. I just need some time. Time to breathe.

My mom called yesterday because we finally got an invite for this wedding we all knew about. It is being held the weekend before finals. This is a very important event- I have known this kid and his family since birth (this kid’s mom set up my parents!) but at the same time, I will need all the study time I can get. The wedding deal is a whole day affair, you know?

I hate to think that majority of my life has moved around school (and now that I have this job, I will have less time to dilly dally and will be super lame. Yes, there is the point where I’m supposed to grow up and take on my responsibilities, but at the same time, I partially envy those who aren’t taking life seriously; I’d love to not have to do anything with my life [/sarc](kind of not really).

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Friends, General

In Good Company

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School is just getting ridiculous. There is so much work going on and not enough time. No more presentations, but I have my exams (after exam after exam) and the damn piano recital. I’m not ready to play Handel’s Prelude in G Major.

I’m trying not to get too side tracked, but the heavier I fall into work, the more time I need away from it. Like the classic idea, “Study hard and party harder.” I’m really doing my best to keep sane (and not completely give up on school.)

Thank goodness for Chris. I’ve been over there on a semi-regular basis, at least once a week ish. He really is nice, and we have a good time for both being busy people.  This weekend, he asked me for a favor, which I don’t mind doing if I am able to.  It took a little bit, but I was able to find what he was looking for.

IMG_20110409_232652I told him he owed me, and for starters, he offered to make pizza if I hadn’t eaten yet. I’m not turning down free food if it’s already pretty much made. All said and done- it wasn’t bad. Not the absolute best pizza in the world, but still pretty delicious…and mad props for making it entirely from scratch! He found Star Wars on TV and put that on because he says I’m a nerd. Just because I can recite some lines…jeeze. He was giving me crap about that all night, and I kept saying how we didn’t have to watch it (Empire Strikes Back was followed by Return of the Jedi).  Ended up crashing since it was early and I was getting tired. To an extent, I feel bad for spending the night- something about intruding on space, even though he says he’s ok with it. I mean, I crashed on the couch, and he felt bad saying I didn’t have to sleep on the couch and  could have slept on the bed. I don’t know…In that sense, I can’t help but think I’m in the way, but we go back and forth on being really nice and actually not minding.

We had this discussion about boys over the weekend too. I’m starting to feel bad about this whole Chris thing on the side. Don’t get me wrong, he’s a great guy, really nice and we get along great, but it was when I was talking about D that was the issue.

D is the one I possibly L word. the one I want, but even though we don’t have this commitment, how can I still go around with another guy? Should I feel guilty about this? Its so Georgia Peachy, but if I feel so strongly about the one, am I allowed to hang around with another?

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