Author: jeanneji

General, Summer

Change in Direction

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Wow. I’ve never really been one for Sex In The City, but right now I feel like Carrie Bradshaw. I am basically living here with Matt. I know, it’s been a while. But I finished out my semester. There’s a lot of school drama with that, actually, but I’m looking to see if I even get to pass the semester. That’s not like me. Things have changed dramatically. I’ve been such a mess. You could say that I lost my footing and the Matt thing is throwing me off and I’ve neglected school because of him, but he’s been good for my mental health. He’s a doctor. Haha

Anyway, the Carrie thing. I’ve been here a lot. I’m sitting in the kitchen on my new computer. I’m writing and he was sweeping in the kitchen and just hanging out. I feel like a writer, sitting back and just doing my thing. This is a really cool satisfying feeling, actually. I like it a lot. I feel so independent. I’m just here, pretty much doing things on my own. But I honestly have the best boyfriend in the world. He is so much more than I could have ever hoped for. I am so happy with him. I can’t say I’m completely happy because I’ve been having trouble with myself- but that’ a work in progress.

He’s so crazy and nerdy. He pretty much completes me. I encouraged him to drink the other day after we both had really long weeks and he started letting some things slip(?) about if we end up married or if I take his hand. I honestly wouldn’t mind that. He’s good for me. The only thing is that his friend got married after only knowing a girl for 3 months. He doesn’t want to do things like that, but I get the feeling this is pretty solid. I’m just enjoying myself in the mean time. Next weekend is the start of our vacation. We’re going down to his family’s place in North Carolina (10 hour drive) for a few days, then we’re driving out to Ocean City, MD (9 hour drive) for about a week to ourselves. I’m super excited. I really need this.

He’s preparing dinner right now. Things are great. We’re going to watch jeopardy. I’ll try to keep this updated more often. Peace out

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Love

Taken

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What? Did you really see that? Like, seriously. About 12 hours after that last post, it all changed. He asked me out. Not like, just a date, but he asked me to be his girlfriend- mutually exclusive, honest girlfriend.

I accepted,  of course! I know I say I’m crazy, but you’d have to be dead or undead not to do it in my shoes. Not just for the amount we have in common, but for the hours on end we can spend talking and never getting any sleep. For every detail and all the coincidences (innumerable at this point), maybe it was a sign. I just know that I am happy.

You hear that? Happy. Maybe not so happy at the timing and all my stupid school things, but inside, I’m in the clouds 🙂 What’s crazier is that I think he’s happier than I am (not that it’s a problem).

So here it is, ladies and gentleman. For the first time in poor little J-bird‘s life, she’s not single. For historian purposes, it happened shortly after the midnight crossing of 24 February, 2012. Go check his facebook. Go like me on fb too while you’re at it 🙂

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General, Love

I Know Something You Don’t Know

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I came upon an article about “how to seduce a leo man” (in terms of astrology). Very interesting thing, seeing as MoneyPenny here is a leo himself. Many things accurate within the piece but it’s never perfect.  Then after that bit I looked for my own. How to Seduce a Capricorn Woman. Very fascinating. I give it a moderately high rating of accuracy, but not completely.

I’m just completely thrown off by what’s happening outside of school. Maybe I’m seriously going mad or MoneyPenny might actually be something. I have a lot of stuff going on, and I have not really sacrificed his time, but I’m still getting my work done. What confuses me the most is how he’s in basically the same program as D is but he says nothing of studying or preparing besides just going in for work. What? How do you have time?!

Not that I’m complaining- this is a really nice change of things. I’m just so. in awe of it all.

This rash can go to hell though. I just want it to get better. It’s a little early for my prednisone today so I’m still waiting. I took my exam earlier and now I’m hanging out melting my brain…and talking with the moneypenny 🙂

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Drugs

DeltaSONE

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I went back to the school nurse practitioner this morning (I missed class because I couldn’t sleep last night. oops) and she looked me over again. Oh no it got worse even after I stopped taking the cymbalta!

Presnisone 60mg x 5 days 🙂 I’m glad that she’s trying to help and can understand. I’ve been cocktailing drugs all week. She’s surprised I’m not in worse shape! But, it’s been maybe an hour since I took my first dose of prednisone and I’m feeling major leg cramps. Not listed in my drug sites as a side effect, but many off websites and users report it. I just wanted to be sure- I can deal with cramps for now if I’m not itching.

Yes I still itch, but it’s been 2 hours and I’m not killing myself yet.

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Health

Bengay

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I was put on Cymbalta (duloxetine) 3 weeks ago tomorrow. I developed a rash after week 1, but it was slow and minor. A week from then (last week) it had begun to spread and intensify. I went to see the school’s clinic (pretty much useless on a regular basis) but I was hoping for any help I could get.

The nurse practitioner was in. She saw me, told me to stop my medication and try antihistamines. Fast forward to today- Ive been doing a 5×2 regimen of OTC products; loratadine, cetirizine, fexofenadine, diphenhydramine and chlorpheniramine. 3 of those are 1 per 24 hours. I’ve been taking 2 of each every morning (more doses of the diphenhydramine and chlorpheniramine when I feel like it since they’re every 4-6 hours. So that’s 10 minimum pills (and capsules) a day for the past week. This rash just keeps getting worse!

I thought the other night it was getting better- all day I was without noticeable itch; I also spent the entire day almost with M. Maybe it was a really nice distraction. Either way, the rash, which began on my calves, is not progressing up my back and has hit the bra line. My arms are starting to show signs of early rashing.

I’ve been trying to study but this itch is becoming increasingly unbearable! I have this generic tube of bengay (methyl salicylate and menthol) and thought about it earlier. Looked up some information and came across only 2 small lines about people using it for a rash. Each said to avoid it because it will only irritate it and make it worse. I gave up earlier, but as of 20 minutes ago, I could literally not stop scratching. I reached for my tube of bengay and starting coating myself.

Here I sit. slightly warm and cooling tingly, but not itchy. I have never hated my own body so much in my life, but I’m ready to get a new one. M said he’s look into my medrol pack for me because he wanted to (really, that’s super nice) but also wanted to make plans for the weekend. I’m really enjoying his company, but it’d be nice if I weren’t on the verge of skinning myself.

Hm…I’m actually starting to feel the itch tingling again…slightly. Maybe I didn’t coat that area, but it might be fighting back. I need to get things done. But here’s to Bengay. The only thing I have in this house that has made any significance.

…must. stop. scratching.

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