Dreams

Misfortune

Last night, I had several dreams. It’s been a while since I’ve written anything down so bear with me. This first one happened between 9pm-1am. I don’t remember when I fell asleep but I know I woke up just before 1 thinking it had to be at least 4am. I was up until 3:30am maybe then I fell asleep until 9-10am.

in the first part, I was walking into a school gym from the back. the place was completely decorated in presidential things- podiums and streamers everywhere. there are cords hanging from all over the place. Amy was walking in front of me and I asked her if they set this all up last night. She said yes. We used to have to set it up the morning of but this is more efficient. But the schedule still allows us to not take part in our first period class since we could not be present for the whole class. we went off to the band room where everyone was practicing. for some reason, only the clarinets were exempt from class. the band was going and all the clarinets were sitting there goofing off. Erin played a little bit but not much.

just then a lady walks into the front with a few other students. she has an announcement to make. there were 2 students there who were Colton, CA candidates and she was announcing 2 more. Then there were 2 girls who were named. I was so shocked. I looked at another girl in the band, I think it was Amanda, and signaled 2 being confused. I needed to text Matt and tell him the terrible news. I pulled out my phone and during the message, I kept having trouble spelling Colton for some reason, but I explained how there were 4 Colton people here in class right now.

I woke up after that part. There’s another scene that I am unsure when it happened.

It was a long hot summer day and I was walking down the street with Linda. There was a trade show going on. I went into this one computer place. This guy who ran it started conversation. Then he asked this lady if she was looking for a job. She wasn’t particularly interested because she had another job but I wanted to know why he didn’t ask me. She had some graphic background and I didn’t. It was a nice conversation and I eventually left to go find Linda. We walked outside and through front doors and I saw Chau. We kinda glanced at each other and nodded a hello. Linda was done and as we were walking back, she asked if I knew about this one pizza place or something. Her and her friends wanted to meet up there. I coincidentally just had a conversation about it, though I’ve never been there, and explained to her where it was.

In the next set of dreams, I was driving to visit Joanne in New York. I ended up at a restaurant and she said to leave my car there and she’d pick me up from there. Trattatori’s. Next thing we’re in this big audience or at her house. I remember wandering around a little and being at a mall too. It is a bit of a blur. I just remember that when we had to leave, I couldn’t find my car. I thought maybe I just left it somewhere else but just kept going with Joanne.

There was another part where I was supposed to be going out with Matt and his mom. We were doing something but then were reminded that we only had 30 minutes left until we had to go. I start rushing around to find clothes and shoes. That ended up taking forever since nothing was working right. Meanwhile, Matt kept coming out of my brother’s room with different outfits on seeing what worked. Several of them being fairly feminine. My tights had a tear in them and none of my shoes fit right. Eventually we got to this restaurant and Matt’s mom was sitting there waiting. She ordered ahead some steak and pasta dish. She asked why we were so late and James, who was sitting next to her, said that I was being a girl. I got the menu and started flipping through. There was a lot of text and it was like reading a program to a show. I couldn’t actually take in any of the content because I just became so exhausted that I couldn’t read it. I got to the end and gave it to Matt.

His mom saw some parade outside or something and wanted to join in. We left the restaurant and did the parade and stopped into another restaurant for the end of parade treat or something. We headed back to the original restaurant and our table had been cleared. James made a point that we left for the parade and that was not brief. The sign said please seat yourself and we were looking around for clear tables as Matt’s mom tried to talk to a guy about our table. She finally came around and picked a table. When we got there, 2 of the plates had peanuts on them, as if people were already there. She and James took their seats and then we realized that mine and Matt’s seat had coats on the backs of the chairs. This had to be someone table. Food started coming out and Matt didn’t care anymore. He sat down and started eating with James. I asked whose food it was. Apparently, the front of the restaurant had been reserved for some event for Yoko Ono. We were eating her food as her guests. I didn’t feel right about it.

That was a bulk of it. I’ll see if anything comes up later.

Dreams, Health, Home

Doctor Doctor

First off, I had the weirdest sick dream last night. It was dirty (raunchy) and included Lenny, and some girl that may or may not have been Amanda. Let me just say that I might be able to understand how Lenny is gay, and that I’m not really into the girl scene. I don’t really want to go into too much more with this. Ew.

I went home last night for a doctor’s appointment earlier today. Since I’m a new patient we did a past medical history and talked a bit. She feels that one of my major conditions that could be effecting the rest of me is depression. I expressed concerns of a thyroid condition so she did draw blood for testing. That makes me feel better. I also got my flu shot while I was in there.

Funny thing with the flu shot. Lately, my “sciatica” has been great/nonexistent. Wasn’t going to say anything. About an hour after my appointment, I was sitting in the kitchen and all of a sudden, it started kicking in. My lower back and hips are going in and out with this panging sore pain. Not cool. I’m leaning the shot as cause, but I can’t say with certainty.

So I got a prescription for Lexapro (escitalopram), copay of $50 (no generic yet- March!). Ouch. I was really upset with that, but I looked up the approximate retail cost which came about to just under $120. Makes me feel better about what I was spending, but I’m still not happy about it. Then again, we also discussed in class how it can cost of up $1.7 BILLION just to bring a single drug into market. I get it costs a lot, but *frown*. We’ll see how it goes in the follow up and or when generic pops out.

Hm. I forgot to mention how I got in to see the school psychologist yesterday. Spent about an hour in a pre-in clinic. A lot of questions and they’ll get back to me to determine whether or not I should be seen at the school or be referred somewhere else. They’re really nice about it, so we’ll see how that goes. How crazy am I? I’ll keep you posted.

Dreams

Family

I was at what appeared to be my graduation. One of my mom’s closer friends brought her family (it’s a family of boys) and the one is absolutely beautiful. I was walking around for a bit and I passed them sitting in the car but didn’t say anything. Later I was in this donut shot with Joanne when they came in. I acted so surprised to see them. At this point, pretty boy was Phil Wong. Crazy. He brought his friend, who may have been Jimmy, I cant remember but I know that he was super attractive. I pretended not to care. I didn’t tell Joanne they were there.

We were trying to get cinnamon pretzels from this Auntie Anne joint. So I kept getting distracted from the guys. Eventually we all sat down on this couch. I was sitting next to Phil and making conversation. But then he turned into my cousin, and was getting weirded out because he thought I was hitting on him (he’s my cousin. gross.) I asked, so you’re 27 now, right? That broke it. So whatever. I got out of there.

Then he started snuggling up to Joanne, now being a mix of my cousin and Phil. We all hopped into the guys’ van (I saw Kev Jumba and some other people) and went off. As Joanne was being cute with Phil, I was being dragged over by the guys in the back to hold hands and things like that. As we were going, I wasn’t sure if it was ok to leave our stuff in our car. I missed some photo ops because my camera was in with the rest of my stuff. We got to this lake thing and it was beautiful. Joanne said I could have her camera to shoot with since I didn’t have mine. I got into the water, up to my neck, to take pictures. Phil was surprised. But as long as the camera doesn’t get wet!

Then we were walking down this busy street. Found this almost haunted abandoned house and went in. We wandered and went to the basement. Started listening to this programmed tour. I thought the one part ended and was gonna leave. It went on, but I left anyway. Someone was browsing the upstairs and I’m just seeing who is all in the house. I walk out to the front porch. I’m sitting on a bench waiting when Cassie McC comes up the long hike of stairs getting to the house. I hug her for a long time because I really missed her and was almost in a distraught state. We talked and Allie came up. She had a cute fake coach bag like my little real one. I offered to trade her since mine was cheap and I liked the look of hers. The two were looking for Melanie and I said if I ran into her I’d let her know.

Then I was at a house more or less alone. It was dark and raining out. I remember needing to get back and I was finally able to go, but then I forgot my camera so I went back in to get it. I can’t remember much on this part, but there were some other people involved.

Dreams

That Boy

I had this dream last night.

I was at an event where it was as if we were in a train station/casino/theater. I was with Laney and Joanne and they were talking to the lady at the desk about ticketing. In the distance I see Matt W. who was with some girl. They were discussing how if they were going, they needed to make sure that there was a train so that they could make it back down to JMU afterwards.

Note: Background information. I really haven’t seen this kid since high school and we were pretty close friends. I wished him a happy birthday and we hinted at getting together this summer. I texted him on 3 events and he said he would get back to me. To this point, he hasn’t gotten back to me so I’m just letting it go.

He hadn’t seen me yet and I didn’t want to keep looking over there in case we made eye contact. I wasn’t going to bring anything up. Eventually, I saw him look over out the corner of my eye and he realized it was me. He started walking over and I pretended to look up so surprised & excited to see him. I was straddling a bench when he came over and was starting to take a seat. There wasn’t much said. I went to give him a hug and he was apologizing for never calling back. He started to mention something about him being free starting Monday (or something like that) and I asked if that meant we could hang out Monday.

He said no, that’s not what he meant. This is when he took a seat behind me where we were both facing the ticketing desk. He put his hands over mine and interlocked our fingers. He leaned his head in and started whispering in my ear.  He apologized again for what happened and said that now that he’s available we can try to make this work. Of course that’s the implication of a relationship which I did not expect. He started getting a little handsy, running our hands (still together) over my skin and just being really sensual. I really couldn’t help the way my body reacted because it just felt so nice. Just to be held.

Then I started thinking about D. I wasn’t sure what to do. I settled on the thought that even though I’ve been waiting for D, there was no commitment made and maybe I could see where this went with Matt in the mean time.  I just never expected to get any of that from Matt so it threw me off.

The scene transformed into part of an old castle to the outside and a cemetery.  I was just with Matt and we started to see some people running in the cemetery. It was Steve and he called out to one of his teachers who was ahead of him. I said very loudly that it’s nice that he never said hi to me too. I hopped off the bench to say hi to Steve. After that, I was sitting on this couch/ledge a little bit down from Matt. Amy showed up later. It was strange how everyone was there (like a high school reunion) and I rolled off the ledge and started to lay on the ground [this method is reminiscent of the one time I slid out of bed when I was with D]. Then I was thinking how strange I am and if that would affect what Matt thought of me.

I woke up shortly after this. Confused.

Dreams

To Live

I took a nap on Thursday before Pharmacognosy and these are the dreams I had. Why is my life in danger.

In the first dream, I was at the mall looking for a parking spot. I was driving and my brother was in the back. It was the evening and there was snow all around. I just turned left to get down a row and passed a car who just started pulling out of the spot (haha…I said pulling out) I went to make a U-Turn (wide one). As I finally looped around, I pulled into the spot and was so happy with myself.

We’re talking a little and I’m not sure if we were waiting to get out or waiting for people to come out of the mall. We were sitting there for not even a minute and I heard the back door open. I wasn’t concerned (as though we were waiting for someone) but then I realize that they were not people we knew. 2-3 black males somewhat hyped up. He had a small gun and was holding it against my head as another was watching my brother. I freaked out. I was almost crying but tried to reason with them. I told them that I didn’t have anything valuable in my purse (partially lying, since I have a few things that might be worth something), but I explained how I was a kid in med school and am shit broke.

He backed down a little as if he knew how broke I was. They decided to let us go, but before the kid with the gun left, he kinda laughed at me and jabbed me a few times by my eye with his gun (which was fairly warm/hot) like this was the best joke ever. But they left.

The next dream I had, I was watching someone do a sniper mission for someone. As soon as the job was done, the boss gave the OK for his own guy to kill the sniper. Sniper was caught off guard (as he was hired to do the job) and I had to tell him that they never intended to pay him. I brought myself into this battlefield. Shot the boss’s guy and kept moving. We were in somewhat of a bunker, and it was like a chain reaction of guys who were hired to take out the previous guy or at least cover the job if someone fails. I’m taking them down one by one, but then when it seems to be calmer, they start pulling grenade-like weapons and smoke bombs. It was as though I was in a trailer and someone threw in a cluster of little grenades (5) and there was no way for me to get rid of them.

They exploded but I wasn’t killed (somehow)

In the third dream…Ugh. I can’t recall anymore. I asked my room mate because I remember mentioning it to him, but he’s trying to remember at the moment either… I just know it was another dream with my life on the line somewhere.

EDIT (01 Feb): SETH TRUMBORE AND FINAL FANTASY VII. I was in a bar type place and one of the songs from FFVII was playing and I saw Seth sitting there and wanted to strike up conversation about the game. There were a lot of interruptions and I never got to actually talk to him about the game. That’s all that comes to mind.