Category: General
Emotional
The past week plus, about, I have been in the worst mood. I want to blame Aunt Flo, but after yesterday, I know it’s not just her work. She gets me moody, but not like this. I have noticed (even Kelsey has told me), but every couple of months, I get just horribly depressed, down, mad at the world and pissy. I can’t explain why, and I can’t predict when, I just know that it happens and I feel awful. These are the days that lead me to suspect something wrong, something that’s much deeper.
I talked to my mom yesterday. She told me that a friend is in the hospital. Blood poisoning, coma. They don’t know really what to expect at this point, but we’re all just praying for the best. That really added to my day. That just broke me- I started crying unbelievably, and everything just felt awful. I couldn’t study (which I really need to) but how could I focus in that state of mind?
I did for a brief moment chat with Dave, and even though it wasn’t anything special at all- probably the lamest chat, just having him there made me feel better. I’m gonna be super miserable should that end tragically. But ok. I’m a wreck. We’ve established that. I avoided my friends here. I want alone time, without the need to worry about exams. I’m curling up after the exam if I’m still feeling this way.
Anyway. I really want to get back into blogging here. I know it’s a rough chance, but it’s worth a shot. I renewed, right? Next 2 weeks, after exams and papers, I’ll be on spring break. 10-11 cities in 14 days. I should have my computer on me (to upload all my pictures so my memory card doesn’t get full), so maybe there will be time for something. Maybe.
I’ve been having a lot of trouble lately in general, actually. In the middle of the night, I wake up, and then I feel myself start to burn up. I start sweating and it’s a terrible feeling. Food has also not been my friend. Well, it has never agreed with me, really- but lately, I can’t seem to control myself. If it’s there, I’ll eat it. I don’t get the “full” feeling, and my mouth just needs to chew. I crave texture, it is not my stomach that wants anything. Gum is ok, but not satisfactory. Rahhh.
Ok. Laney just stopped by, and I should probably get back studying. STUDY STUDY…ew, who am I now, Dave?
Annoyed
Lately I’ve been kinda mad at the world. I say emotions, but it doesn’t change the fact that I’m apparently pissed at every one and every thing. A few days left until Spring Break. I hope I’ll feel better by then.
Ayee!
Took a few days, but I finally got Dell support and they’re sending someone out. Expected in 2 days now, actually. So I’ve been a bit detached the past odd weeks. No computer? I never realized how freaking dependent I was on that- completely helpless without it. I had to start utilizing the Academic center and the cafe.
This past weekend I went up to Scotland and had the most amazing time of my life. I have about 700+ pictures, but I’ll start posting or something once I get baby back. I need to start thinking about my summer job too. I was looking at my classes for the fall- not fun. But I feel like it would be more convenient to get a job and make money/gain hours rather than in a classroom away from everrryyyoneee.
I’m starting to feel the crunch of the schedule. I don’t have a lot going on, but there will be a lot due soon- so here’s to productivity!
The Monster Ball
The past week has just been absolutely ridiculous. Wonderful, yet absolutely miserable. Let me start off by saying that I have suffered a hard drive failure on my laptop. No computer of my own while I’m out of the country. I have some phone calls to make :
Joanne and I were able to do a bit of planning for spring break, which was great. I could only contribute so much without poor baby. I never realized how much the computer was to me. I can’t watch my shows, I can’t browse, check, or even school work! Gasp. I’ve been running off of the cafe iMac for the last 2 days. Hear that? IMAC. Anything will do. Crap. How will I watch Jonathan Ross? Johnny Depp and Tim Burton are on this week.
Speaking of which…I went to the world premier of Alice in Wonderland. Stood out in the rain for 9 hours, and all I saw was the cars drive by carrying the beloved people. They never got around to seeing people and signing. Another fun but disappointing day.
Tonight, I went to see Lady Gaga at the O2 Arena. It was great; front row of the 2nd tier. Problem though. They confiscated my camera because “it’s classified under a professional camera” and thus not permitted. I have no pictures to look back on the night. Take my word for it though, it was a marvelous show.
This week will hopefully go by fast. I’m leaving for Scotland on Thursday night. Julia is coming to London for a week, and I hope to see her. It’s crazy here. I think that summarizes everything though. Back again soon, I hope.