I’m dropping off facebook again. I’m trying to make some changes. Maybe get some updates in.
Ps. I renewed for another 2 years 🙂 Let’s make it good.
Category: General
Road Less Traveled
It’s been a pretty wild few days now. Â I choose wild because some days are super eventful as others have nothing to them.
I missed the ball drop into 2010. Oops. But its ok- it’ll happen next year, right? Haha. Anyway. Missy had a little get together, and we also all went to go see Avatar in IMAX. Â It was a good time. Â I am a huge fan of Sam Worthington, so it was well worth it XD
At about 5:30am this morning, I awoke to drive my mother off to work so that I may have the car. Â At approximately 7:00am, I arrived at Rob‘s house to pick him up. Â We met his mother at the cafe and had a nice long breakfast. Â After that, Rob and I began a long trip out to Pittsburgh. Â There was some pretty terrible weather, but it wasn’t too bad. Â There were po along the way (yuck). Â Then we arrived, finally.
It was nice to get out of the car. I did my hair in his room. Rich and his girl friend came up and they are adorable. Â Then I met Rob‘s BFF Nick. Â Hung out for a while…did some groceries.Finally, my big journey was to begin. Â I headed north for eerie Erie o_O! GASP.
The snow got worse and was in and out of horrendous.  As I got to the actual city though, all the snow stopped falling and disappeared off the ground.  No way. I parked and rang Dave‘s doorbell 🙂 This is where I am now and will be for a few days (but hush hush…family doesn’t know about this.)  Should they read this, they can call me.
He made dinner, which is super nice and it smells delicious, but I’m not feeling too hungry just yet. Â I’m just pretty exhausted from the traveling and my lack of sleep prior to leaving (max of 2.5 hours). Â We watched a pile of Aqua Teen Hunger Force too.
Why am I sitting here on the floor blogging you ask? Dave is in med school. He studies his ass off.  Free time is over and it’s time to get cracking.  I’m just the company- dirtying dishes and warming the floor, couch and bed 😉
I’m working on making a calendar for my mom. Â Set up a super nice one but they want almost 30 for it. I am going to try to find a cheaper one before I commit. Â Now, in the mean time, I should try to find something to do for tomorrow while Dave‘s in class. Â You know- besides rummaging and snooping around his apartment… JK. I can’t even touch his phone nonetheless go through his things. Â We’ll see what happens though.
Just GaGa
I’m currently sitting on the train right now; it’s Tuesday the 1st of December. I just got out of my physics exam at 2ish, so it’s pretty chill now. The past week has been kind of interesting, but not too exciting. I hope everyone had a good holiday.
On Thanksgiving, I went out to Peace Valley Park and took some pictures. I got up at about 4:30 on Black Friday to get to Best Buy with my brother. He wanted a game. I just happened to pick up 4 seasons of House (I’m awful with money). Dinner with the family was pretty typical.
My phone’s been pretty dead lately- no calls or texts. I don’t want to say I’m completely dependent on it, but at the same time, it does get a little lonely sometimes. Going from one extreme to the next is just an adjustment.
Anyway. GaGa. This Thursday, December 3rd, 2009- I shall be attending the Lady GaGa concert with a group of fantastic kids. I’m pretty excited. I spent last night watching a bunch of interviews with her on YouTube- I think we could be friends 🙂 Everyone has some outfit, which was mandatory. Haha. I have a tuxedo dress, sequin jacket, mini top hat, fish nets, opera gloves, mini bow-tie. Cane optional 😛 I wonder if I can find a monocle XD That’d be a little much. I’m still tweaking some things and finishing some things, but hopefully everything is grand.
I’ve been updating StarFall if you’re interested, and some things in my Photo gallery. My dream log has been pretty slacking. I haven’t been sleeping much in the past few days…weeks? Maybe a good long while I say. This past week I averaged about 2hours a sleep per night, and I’d be up possibly 24+ when I am up too. Something’s not right.
This may drag for a while. I have a lot running on my mind, and I’m not sure what I’m doing anymore.
I’ve been thinking a lot about where I’m going in life. I never chose this path for myself; I let my friend pick it for me since I don’t know what I want. there are things that I enjoy doing, but i don’t have anything that drives me. like, GaGa knew what she wanted to do when she was young- that was her calling. Nothing calls to me, and if it does, then I don’t hear it. I’ve always been looking for that one thing that i was meant to do.
My relationship with school is pretty selfish. it’s becoming a love/hate thing. the school itself is great. The education that you get is quality, but my problem is that I don’t want this like some people do. in the sense that if you choose a job you love, you’ll never have to work a day in your life. if this is something you want to do, it’s not as much a hassle because you want to be here doing what you do. I’m struggling because there are so many other things that i want to do, and i feel like it’s more a sacrifice of myself to put the time and effort into school.
i like the things i learn here, but I’m afraid that’s not enough to keep me here. something about being here puts me on a different set of standards- into a different world that i want to be apart of, but i don’t know if i really belong. Is there some other person out there more deserving of my seat? I learn things but I don’t retain so well. Is it my method in learning, or is my memory just shot? It hurts me when I know I’ve learned something, but I cannot recall any of it. So what if I pull the grade- that won’t mean jack shit once I’m out working and need to know this information. Would it be better to get C’s in class but have full retention and understanding?
Eerie Erie
So I’m sitting here on the couch right now. At Dave’s. Polar Opposite of where I was. I mentioned it in the last post and ended up going through with it, surprisingly. I still can’t believe I’m here. Like, none of that – I wonder if he’s online. HE’S FUCKING RIGHT NEXT TO ME.
My original plan was to see if he was free to skype and say there was an error with my video and just show up at the door. Â Bad plan because the apartment complex has another door that’s locked and I can’t get into. Â He sent me a text asking where I went (signed off skype when I stepped to the door) and i decided to send a picture of the place to answer. Nope. Picture mail would not send! Lame freaking ass. I get back on skype and actually managed to video through my phone connection.
He was asking questions that I did not want to answer directly to take away from the surprise.  Finally, I gave up and showed him the picture of his door via skype.  Suddenly confusion ensued.  He was like, “wait, when were you here?” Haha. Like I would come by and NOT stop in to say hi.  Then after we established that I was outside, he just left the computer and came out 🙂
There was the “holy shit, you’re here” and hug. I got a tour of the place (very nice) and we chatted a bit. Â He’s a busy boy so I let him get back to his studying as I wrote the 2nd part of my paper. How studious we are. Haha. That’s seriously how lame we are. He’s back to his studying right now as I’m just hanging out, with some of his music in the background.
I think I’m coming back up here at the end of his winter break, because I’ll still be on mine. And anything after that, I’ll be gone. SO. Here’s to making plans.
I said was maybe peacing by 3…but that’s changed a little. We’ll see when I actually get out of here. I made it up in just under 5 hours, when it should take somewhere over 6…and then depends on stops. Â Everyone is surprised I didn’t get pulled over. I didn’t think it was so risky! I’ll be more cautious on the way back, I promise.
That’s about it for now. I have an Orgo exam TUESDAY (I don’t have those notes here to look at, unfortunately), then it’s break for me. So we’ll see. We’ll see…
Absolute Insanity
We’re winding down on the week and coming up on Thanksgiving Break. Â I finished my physics for the semester (yesss) and I have a Physics Quiz Friday, Nature paper due Monday (and lab that day) then Organic Chemistry Tuesday. Then I’m free.
This is where I crazy myself more so than what I already had. Â I was Skyping Dave earlier. Â Wasn’t even really chatting, more of the company (but it made me super happy either way) but I got an idea. More so urged on by my friend Rob. Â Dave is a 6 hour straight drive away. Â I was gonna drive out to Pitt and pick up kids for Thanksgiving, but now I may change that.
This is a surprise. Â I think THIS weekend, I’m driving out to ERIE to see Dave. Â He’s gonna be driving back here Tuesday, but he has family things and I don’t really want to get in the way (since they were kinda there first) and my driving out to Pitt would conflict with him coming here (not seeing each other). Â I may pass on Pitt this time, drive out to Dave this weekend as a surprise. Â Then I can check off roadtrip from my life list, and I can understand the pain of this trek (what the fam had to do :P).
I’ve lost what little sanity I had, but I think I’m going through with this. High five. I hope I’m really not insane though. Crazy people are…crazy. Scary.
Hehe…well ok. That’s my sharing for tonight. I have huge plans for a while now. I’ll keep you all posted!