This is so hard to keep up with. I go in and out of motivation to keep up, but I have so much to catch up on!

First off, Matt and I have come a long way. We’re almost on our one year (my first! haha) and Valentine’s is also coming up.

I don’t recall if I mentioned it in the last one, but I kind of ruined some of his plans of proposing by calling him out, so he said I’d have to wait until at least the one year point.  I took him to Milan J to show him the ring I want. It’s beautiful, and guess what. He liked it!  We started the process of moving out of the apartment and if we can get out of the lease early, he said he’s taking the money to buy my ring. Now he’s just planning a way to do it without me catching on.

We find out on the 11th if he will get matched and that will tell us if we end up in Scranton, Virginia or West Virginia. Should he not get matched, he’s getting scrambled into who knows where. But as soon as we find out, I am finished this house hunting.

I’ve been also trying to keep away from wedding planning because I get so caught up in it all. I like nice things and I just want to go wild. It’s so exciting, but we don’t have the resources to do everything I want. I need to tone it down since I just take everything too far. I find out the best ideas or even the coolest ways to propose, but that only limits him on how he can do it since I’ve seen more ideas than he has.

I’m currently sitting around watching Archer season 3. I’ve forgotten how nice graphics looks with my box.  I’ve had it here on my desk for so long since I don’t want to carry it around.

Speaking of office, I’ve been thinking about my career. I really like the idea of being able to work from home. Some reason, if I don’t find my way into medical school, I have considered a computer role. Getting back into webdesign or or graphic design perhaps. I love the flexibility of working on my own time and if we had kids, I could spend the time to raise them, take to recitals and practice!

Haha. Kids. Who knows where I am going. I just really like the idea of my future more than actually acting on it. It’s easier to dream. I’ve been going to the gym lately, but it’s so tough. Keeping up for slow progress is not very encouraging. My heart is better and I don’t get winded as easily, but I can’t stay motivated. I weigh myself and it goes up. My pants are starting to get tight, even though I am doing my work of exercising. I just hope this is the muscle growth phase before the fat starts to melt.

I’m trying. This is so difficult for me.