Here goes. It’s been a long time since I’ve updated (not as long as I’ve ever gone though). To update things where we left off, I have decided not to go back to school. I just started prozac a few days ago, and I have no idea what I’m doing.

There hasn’t been too much more beyond that. I keep feeling terrible about myself but I’m trying to change that. On a fun note, I had some extra lobster meat (yeah, more lobster than I knew what to do with) so I pulled up a recipe for Lobster Mac & Cheese.

This upcoming month, Matt will be living at home to do his emergency medicine rotation. He asked if I would go with him and spend the month up there. I couldn’t sleep last night but I was also thinking of all the things I could do. His brother will be at school and then he, his mother and step-dad will all be at work so I will have the place to myself. I would like to make this my opportunity to do something good for myself. They have an elliptical and resistance band machine in the basement, but they also live on a resort so there’s opportunity for me to go out for runs, biking and such. There’s a pool but I’m not a fan of the public, and you need a membership for the actual gym there. I am hoping that I can pretend someone reads this and upload my progress to help myself stay on track and get myself back. It’s a lot easier to imagine things than actually do them. Maybe I’ll read a book on the trail and take some pictures while I’m out there.

I decided against the humiliating option to take a picture of myself to see the before and after. I might just take the scale with me.

Speaking of reading, I’ve been on the reddit funnies a lot. It’s a good way to pass the time, honestly. There’s a mix of the immature witty sarcastic AND intelligent humor. Ok. So I need to start packing and find food. I’ll come back to update again later.