Health, Home

The Next Stage

This is so hard to keep up with. I go in and out of motivation to keep up, but I have so much to catch up on!

First off, Matt and I have come a long way. We’re almost on our one year (my first! haha) and Valentine’s is also coming up.

I don’t recall if I mentioned it in the last one, but I kind of ruined some of his plans of proposing by calling him out, so he said I’d have to wait until at least the one year point.  I took him to Milan J to show him the ring I want. It’s beautiful, and guess what. He liked it!  We started the process of moving out of the apartment and if we can get out of the lease early, he said he’s taking the money to buy my ring. Now he’s just planning a way to do it without me catching on.

We find out on the 11th if he will get matched and that will tell us if we end up in Scranton, Virginia or West Virginia. Should he not get matched, he’s getting scrambled into who knows where. But as soon as we find out, I am finished this house hunting.

I’ve been also trying to keep away from wedding planning because I get so caught up in it all. I like nice things and I just want to go wild. It’s so exciting, but we don’t have the resources to do everything I want. I need to tone it down since I just take everything too far. I find out the best ideas or even the coolest ways to propose, but that only limits him on how he can do it since I’ve seen more ideas than he has.

I’m currently sitting around watching Archer season 3. I’ve forgotten how nice graphics looks with my box.  I’ve had it here on my desk for so long since I don’t want to carry it around.

Speaking of office, I’ve been thinking about my career. I really like the idea of being able to work from home. Some reason, if I don’t find my way into medical school, I have considered a computer role. Getting back into webdesign or or graphic design perhaps. I love the flexibility of working on my own time and if we had kids, I could spend the time to raise them, take to recitals and practice!

Haha. Kids. Who knows where I am going. I just really like the idea of my future more than actually acting on it. It’s easier to dream. I’ve been going to the gym lately, but it’s so tough. Keeping up for slow progress is not very encouraging. My heart is better and I don’t get winded as easily, but I can’t stay motivated. I weigh myself and it goes up. My pants are starting to get tight, even though I am doing my work of exercising. I just hope this is the muscle growth phase before the fat starts to melt.

I’m trying. This is so difficult for me.

General, Travel

Bluefield

I am currently sitting in a starbucks outside of Princeton, WV. Matt had his interview today at Bluefield Regional Medical Center (BRMC) and this is the nearest starbucks. We’re killing time until the resident dinner tonight; we had to check out of our hotel and this is free internet Smile with tongue out

This place is quite something. First of all, it’s an 8 hour drive into the middle of nowhere. It’s tucked away on the border of Virginia and West Virginia in the mountains. Beautiful. There are trees for miles and it’s fall so the colors are just stunning. Pictures to come.

When I first got here, I was kind of nervous. If Matt ends up here, I wasn’t sure I could be happy here because it’s so different from what I am used to. It’s very rural. There isn’t a lot going on. More nature than people. I got a chance to drive around today and there are little things to comfort me while I am here. I know for a fact that I will miss home (Oh, how I have taken KOP for granted), but this doesn’t have to be a terrible thing. There is plenty of land for Joey.

Just in driving to walmart here we cross the border into Virginia about 5 times. It’s so close to the border. I used to think there wasn’t much to do at home, but this is so much less. But even here, there are the same people from home. The lazy large people on motorized scooters, big girls who wear too little, ghetto ricers- they’re all here.

It’s growing on me. It really is. I just know it will be a huge change from what I am used to.

Dreams

Misfortune

Last night, I had several dreams. It’s been a while since I’ve written anything down so bear with me. This first one happened between 9pm-1am. I don’t remember when I fell asleep but I know I woke up just before 1 thinking it had to be at least 4am. I was up until 3:30am maybe then I fell asleep until 9-10am.

in the first part, I was walking into a school gym from the back. the place was completely decorated in presidential things- podiums and streamers everywhere. there are cords hanging from all over the place. Amy was walking in front of me and I asked her if they set this all up last night. She said yes. We used to have to set it up the morning of but this is more efficient. But the schedule still allows us to not take part in our first period class since we could not be present for the whole class. we went off to the band room where everyone was practicing. for some reason, only the clarinets were exempt from class. the band was going and all the clarinets were sitting there goofing off. Erin played a little bit but not much.

just then a lady walks into the front with a few other students. she has an announcement to make. there were 2 students there who were Colton, CA candidates and she was announcing 2 more. Then there were 2 girls who were named. I was so shocked. I looked at another girl in the band, I think it was Amanda, and signaled 2 being confused. I needed to text Matt and tell him the terrible news. I pulled out my phone and during the message, I kept having trouble spelling Colton for some reason, but I explained how there were 4 Colton people here in class right now.

I woke up after that part. There’s another scene that I am unsure when it happened.

It was a long hot summer day and I was walking down the street with Linda. There was a trade show going on. I went into this one computer place. This guy who ran it started conversation. Then he asked this lady if she was looking for a job. She wasn’t particularly interested because she had another job but I wanted to know why he didn’t ask me. She had some graphic background and I didn’t. It was a nice conversation and I eventually left to go find Linda. We walked outside and through front doors and I saw Chau. We kinda glanced at each other and nodded a hello. Linda was done and as we were walking back, she asked if I knew about this one pizza place or something. Her and her friends wanted to meet up there. I coincidentally just had a conversation about it, though I’ve never been there, and explained to her where it was.

In the next set of dreams, I was driving to visit Joanne in New York. I ended up at a restaurant and she said to leave my car there and she’d pick me up from there. Trattatori’s. Next thing we’re in this big audience or at her house. I remember wandering around a little and being at a mall too. It is a bit of a blur. I just remember that when we had to leave, I couldn’t find my car. I thought maybe I just left it somewhere else but just kept going with Joanne.

There was another part where I was supposed to be going out with Matt and his mom. We were doing something but then were reminded that we only had 30 minutes left until we had to go. I start rushing around to find clothes and shoes. That ended up taking forever since nothing was working right. Meanwhile, Matt kept coming out of my brother’s room with different outfits on seeing what worked. Several of them being fairly feminine. My tights had a tear in them and none of my shoes fit right. Eventually we got to this restaurant and Matt’s mom was sitting there waiting. She ordered ahead some steak and pasta dish. She asked why we were so late and James, who was sitting next to her, said that I was being a girl. I got the menu and started flipping through. There was a lot of text and it was like reading a program to a show. I couldn’t actually take in any of the content because I just became so exhausted that I couldn’t read it. I got to the end and gave it to Matt.

His mom saw some parade outside or something and wanted to join in. We left the restaurant and did the parade and stopped into another restaurant for the end of parade treat or something. We headed back to the original restaurant and our table had been cleared. James made a point that we left for the parade and that was not brief. The sign said please seat yourself and we were looking around for clear tables as Matt’s mom tried to talk to a guy about our table. She finally came around and picked a table. When we got there, 2 of the plates had peanuts on them, as if people were already there. She and James took their seats and then we realized that mine and Matt’s seat had coats on the backs of the chairs. This had to be someone table. Food started coming out and Matt didn’t care anymore. He sat down and started eating with James. I asked whose food it was. Apparently, the front of the restaurant had been reserved for some event for Yoko Ono. We were eating her food as her guests. I didn’t feel right about it.

That was a bulk of it. I’ll see if anything comes up later.

General, Travel

Stormy

Holy Hell this watch is beautiful. I just came across a limited series of Star Wars watches from Seiko. This one just happens to be going for $1600 🙁 It’s mighty beautiful though.

Side note, I’m going down to the city tomorrow to visit Lenny. Joey is coming along, of course. It’s been a while since I’ve seen anyone. I’m just hoping to stop by Matt’s apt. to pick up a few things too. Maybe reminisce about the days when it was just us in there. His family is great, but I miss our alone time. I know he doesn’t see his family much, but it’s just been work and Guildwars 2. It’s one of those situations going from constant to nothing. I miss the attention. I’d like to think that I’d be better if it wasn’t such a drastic change so quick.

On the up side, he has two interviews so far! One of them is in West Virginia and the other is CALIFORNIA. We all know that I prefer California to the middle of nowhere, but we’ll take what we can get. It would just be a win for me if that’s where he chose to end up. We’ll see though. I will probably end up going with him down to WV for that interview, but it’s too costly right now to tag along to the west coast. I’m not concerned about the interviews because he’s great with them. Getting the interview was the difficult portion- he’s so charismatic and knowledgeable.

I rearranged my room, finally. It’s still somewhat cluttered, but it’s a lot cleaner than it was. I finally pulled my speakers out of the box- they’re banging. I still need to finish up some things but it is definite progress 🙂